... *sigh*... another monday... another looooooooong day at school... *sigh*

At the suggestion of a reader fmorgana ([link])
I recently joined LJ to participate in their childhood contest... my entry is going to be PRECIOUS FLOWER [link]

but i have no idea how the whole community thing works... what's more, I realized I have no idea hoe to clubs/groups (w/e) on DA work... anyone here on any NejiTen clubs here?... or really can anyone explain how they work to me? thanks

food thing's taken care of... got some cheese sticks at the deli down the street...

but no internet...

insane...


I got to school at 9... well more like 8:45... anyway... since then til now (about 8 hours... still have 4 more to go)... and the internet had been on and off like 5 times all day (the "on" part I mean)... and really the most it has stayed on for is like 2 minutes

It's torture... pure torture... i swear they're trying to kill us...

imagine... I actually had to pay attention in class today...

OH THE HORROR!!!!

lets hope this "on" actually sticks... cos 3 hours of professional responsibly will kill me if I have no internet...




.... "cheerful" mood ABOVE... i don't think... but it won't change!!!!

lol... ok, so obviously my focus right now had been fanfic over fanart... and my primary story is WHAT IS LOVE? ... the GaaTenNeji Fic... well, the tricky thing about it is that I'm experimenting with it by trying to write a love story without ever writing from the two lover's perspectives (i.e. NejiTen)... being a triangle, of course, there's a 3rd party... in this case Gaara... so i was thinking, I would have liked to write it all from his POV... well that was the idea to begin with, but clearly that wouldn't work because Gaara can't be in every scene (or rather... I can't skip scenes where Neji and Tenten are on their own)... so that complicated things... but I easily fixed it by convenintly having other characters around to describe what Neji and Tenten are each going through... still, my main goal is to write form Gaara's POV... however, the boy's not easy to write for.

Gaara's personality, which is the main reason I love him, is very... complex... his head is one that is difficult to jump into, so I still don't feel like I've quite captured Gaara's true voice... nonetheless, that hasn't really stopped me... I'm still trying and I think for no, it's not too bad...

I usually have bad dreams, but rarely classify them as "nightmares" unless they're bad enough to actually wake me up... this one was..

I can't remember it anymore because it was really really intense... all I can remember at this point though was that at one point I was being chased by Gaara, but that it was Shukaku who was controlling him... I think near the time I woke up, there was this scene where a monster fist came out of Gaara's chest (of sand of course) and wrapped itself around my body... like the thumb to the right of my torso, the pinky and ring finger to my left... and the index and middle finger over my shoulders, with my neck right in between. I remember a mini sandstorm whirling around me (like I guess the sand coffin jutsu was about to get me)... I remember being scared, but then I saw through the sand a glimpse of Gaara's face and he looked sad... he was looking down, like he didn't want to see what was about to happen... actually it was the shock of seeing his sad face that woke me up, more than what was about to happen... weird...

anyway... just wanted to share that... such a weird dream... who knew i could dream in anime... ... lol... heheheh

That my mom is okay! unfortunately I haven't seen her all day, because today's my 11 hour school day... but I've been calling the hospital and my dad's cell and my brother's cell and the house many many times today... so... I know what's going on... she's good... we're good... I'm happy. XD

thank you to all who sent your kind wishes for her recoop... thanks